喜欢。

我决定了。不管你会不会喜欢我，我还是会去默默地喜欢着你。

不管这叫欣赏也好、还是肉欲也好（虽然我从不觉得是那么一回事），但男女之间的爱慕，不都是从对对方有好感起开始的？不管是什么，不都要有个开始？

而我对你的喜欢，不管看似多么不可思议，就连我自己也难以理解与相信，但自从和你相处的第一刻起，仿佛就已种下了情苗。

我想你。我在想着你。思念着你的一举一动、思念着你的笑容、思念你嘴角哼着歌的模样。想着你那让我窝心的微笑、想着你傻气的模样、想着和你在一起，那平静与随和的气氛。

我不知道我会喜欢你多久。因为生命有太多、太多的可能与不可能，所以我不敢承诺。

想念你时，有时会让我很快乐；但有时，又会让我很哀伤。因为，我这想念你的心情，不知会否被你接纳，但又不能让你知道。


单恋的心情，是痛苦的、是复杂的，但也有快乐。
因为试问，即使是世间上的对对情侣，有哪些是和他们真心喜欢的人在一起？有哪些人从没真正尝过爱？有哪些人，对于“爱”这字眼还迷糊着，不了解爱是什么？所以，能遇到一个能让自己发自内心，真正去喜欢与思念的一个人，已可说是可遇不可求了。



我…… 愿你幸福。

缘分

如果我们有缘，终将还是会再在一起的！

但此时，我预祝你能尽快找到你的幸福；即使那女孩不会是我。

套我在某处看到的一句话：

I wanted you to be happy - so i never told you the truth。

因为我喜欢你，所以我祈求你的快乐。我不能和你在一起没有关系，但我希望你过得好。

你要过得好，过得开心哦！当我能完全独立时，能不成任何人的累赘，而你还单身的话，或许，到时候我会再去找你。但现在，你若有中意的心仪对象，我还是会100%地替你加油的！

加油吧！

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Let me blow air kisses to you...

王力宏 ~ Kiss Goodbye


Baby 不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手 彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口 但 不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心 好好欣赏你的美

幸福搭配悲伤 痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪 不能测试 爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走 去跟随

*每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you good bye
爱情的滋味 此刻 我终于最明白*

幸福搭配悲伤 痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪 不能测试 爱的重量
付出的爱收不回 但欠你的我不能给
我才明白 爱最真实的滋味

Repeat *

HO 我终于最明白
我终于明白

Repeat *

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I'm finally saying bye bye to my maid. I wont get anymore maid. Time to train my kid to be independent. Time for me to face up to all the nitty gritty practicalities all by myself. Time to deal with what i can do and wanna do. Time to build up bond with kid, the one that matters most in my life despite my negligence. He's the one i've been working so hard for. Hey c'mon, it'll be fun and great exp. Forget about how clean your house should look. Have fun! Imagine washing and hanging clothes with your kid. Imagine cooking together. Imagine doing household chores together. It'll be fun ;)

As for him... my big infatuation... my 遗憾 for the moment... Time is not right, darling... I can't tend to you.. Look, i hv nth to give to you. Whatsmore, i don't even know whether u like me back or not! Plus you're still single and eligible, you might find some nice pure gal along the way to love ya know?

Those moments when i've gone out with you... even though we've never held hands nor kiss or even hug... we've never even taken a pic together using hp! I do treasure all those moments. It's like the lyrics of this song above:

每一次和你分开 深深的被你打败

每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦难以释怀

I hope you'll be doing good as always. That you'll find your enthusiasm in life soon. If we're meant to be, we will come together one day. I like you, but let me bury this pain in my heart. 和你在一起时真的是：

“幸福搭配悲伤 痛是在我心交叉

挫折的眼泪 不能测试 爱的重量

付出的爱收不回 但欠你的我不能给

我才明白 爱最真实的滋味 ”

silhouette

Felt very tired today after having not much sleep and having to reach office by 9.30am for course. Was late in fact. Took a direct bus there and reached there close to 9.50am.

So at 11pm+, started to take a bath.

Looking at myself in the mirror, i scrunched my tousled "outta bed" hair (cos i just woke up at abt 10pm+; i conked out at 7pm+) just when the steamy jet of water made part of my hair wet and i tot:

Gawd, i look so sultry and sexy!

Haha... but the emotions behind this sultry facade is in upheaval. No one really knows baby...

我想念 “天使” :S

When i was done and went to my room, i stood nude in front of my dressingtable mirror. Wow..! i mean i am no perfect gal. I may hv some cellulite on my thighs and droopy butt and all.. but overall i still look good. Those perky nice rounded breasts, nice hips in proportion to waist... still huggable and desirable... haha!

Becos i wasnt quite dry yet, i decided to not wear my clothes immediately (in fact as i'm typing this, i still have yet to put on my clothes!) but just lay down on my bed on my stomach typing stuff on my another blog, checking my email on my laptop. I saw him logged unto msn. So i opened up another acct and started to talk to him. I was still naked.. but no, i dun hv any dirty thought running thru my mind at all. Really just trying to be comfortable and dry myself that's all.

The word "need" is just too cliche and overused. To me, it's a desire... not a need. You can control yourself if you don't allow yourself to give in. Someone told me of late that there's a US campaign running right now: "no one ever got AIDS from masturbation"

So... i wont die just becos i'm not actively fucking anyone.