Some Pics to Share ^_^

These are pictures of some fruits which our relatives gave us when we went M'sia yesterday for 公公's 扫墓。

Cool harvest! We have bananas (2 dif types), buah chiku (4th uncle risked climbing sky-high to get these), papaya (extreme left) and last of all, 我的美人！
You wont believe this, but this huge watermelon weighs heavier than my 7 yrs old boy!

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These are pictures of my son's terrapins that I had gotten for him on da 17th March 2006. He loves em so as they are his very own first REAL pets!

He'd specially picked out one male and one female for his pet terrapins. Guess which is which?

Smile turtle smile!

Terrapins in their special terrapin tank

Are You Making Use of Meh All Along?

Opened da letter-box again today after sending my boy to school at my old residence where a "happy" (I used to think so) family of three and a maid used to live together.

Hmm... some letters... letters for him... one of the headings of an envelope signalled a debt pursuer's co. Well, aint da first time receiving em anyway...

But it got me thinking. Esp. his smses of profession of love these days... increasing in frequency ea time... declaring and hinting his wish to get back together...

*frowns* Come to think of it, are you using me all along?

*Shudders* Seven long years, mind you bro... Is that all you have to offer to me up even to this point now? You're really sinister you know...

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天啊！This blog is getting to be like a 怨妇's blog! Consisting of nothing but 怨 for her EHTB :S Guess have been cooping myself up too much...

But going out means spending $$ & time which neither do I hv much. And you cant expect your friends to blanjah all da time... if I hv dat many friends to go out on ea dif day that is.

My prob is unique here. Years back, my EHTB always frown whenever I am on da phone with any of my friends, be it male or FEMALE... I stopped contacting em gradually also due to the hectic hours demanded fr my work. Friends of same age then are still busy studying (and their topics would be like "how's ur study trip to Aust?", "gotten ur master degree oredy?" & "attachment work damn stress hor?" etc when all I've got is just plain "O" levels. T.T Feel really out of place ard em) My colleagues are mostly much older than me else the young ones are into the chiong lifestyle; i.e go karaoke, clubbing, spas, beauty salons, branded goods shopping and most of em smoke (I dun). I'm not into shopping, am not leading a tai tai lifestyle so quit asking me abt wat brands, wat latest designs and stuffs. Dun hv e xtra to splurge on stuffs like these =.='' Those dat I've managed to connect with are those wif kids ard my kid's age. We discuss a lot of kids' issues and they are like minimum 5 - 10 or more years older than me. Aunties are always nice to me though =). But other than that, they are just chatty colleagues I hv at work, we dun go out (I was busy scrimping $$ to go out then too!) I cldnt tell my dad my probs too lest he worry (there's nothing much he cld do anyway) and he is not one who is that patient to hear you out too. My relatives? Nah... the ones I like live too far away (in Msia) and dun wanna trouble them & anyway, it'll all go back to my dad. My colleagues? I do grumble on & off to em but they noe not da full details cos I was still helping HIM to save face then. Cldnt bear it if they talk bad abt him in frt of me while I work (even though he is dat bad). To state da facts, my colleagues were even helping to analyse then for me how my shift wld work out shd I divorce him. I didn't even realize I need a divorce then! I was then only 21! Btw, my colleagues bought me a cake on top of the usual gift for my 21st birthday (am really touched), which they suggest I take home to share with my husband after eating almost half of it. I dun even rmb what my EHTB did for me on my 21st... dat pathetic! Did I buy my own bdae cake afterwards? Maybe he did buy a small one ~ using my own $$ lor.. wat else u expect?

Now peers of my age hv graduated (lost touch with most of them anyway) but busy 谈恋爱 or climbing the corporate ladder. I also feel pai seh to confide in them my own marital woes, lest I undermine their confidence. Or rather, I wasn't willing to open up then to them because I was still trying to save his face... now I dun care! Haha! Just sms 3 frds and update them simply on my current situation now. Maybe meet up from there and hopefully this blog will hv events more interesting than my 怨气 abt him even though it's a good avenue for me to release out all my frustrations here. Still hv yet to fix up the next appt wif my counsellor.

I know one way of going out and getting free drinks and lunches! Going out wif those buayas lor =.='' but that aint my cuppa tea... unless if there is business interest! Hmm... going back to my lifeplanning line soon... insurance for you =) ?

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I am a woman, hear me roar!

Well, I do purr when within the embrace of my lover... xD

Nay... no lover at da moment though. Am as good as single now though I come attached with marriage cert still. Hv yet to dissolve my marriage, not dat I m hesitant, just dat some proceedings are taking their own sweet time which are out of my control and boundaries.

Not interested in flings or ons =.='' A little tease of flirtatious exchange of words is fine, does wonders for ur ego, I dun mind dat, but must be done wif finesse. Else it'll come off as cheesy as this pick up line, "Want a bang?"

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Wa ha ha!

(laughter signifying exasperations)

Godammit!

For reasons to myself, I think it is not wise to explain the exact situation here.

But Godammit! EHTB! >:(

You're nothing but a proud empty cheque waiting for ppl to fill in, only to know that it bounce!

BOUNCED CHEQUE! >:(

Not dat I am not aware of this already but the nitty, gritty stuffs that I have NO CHOICE but to deal with alongside wif you. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

Big things, small things... if you want someone totally unreliable and make you look totally bad becos he would not bother to update you on da necessary details, may I present to you...

MY EHTB!!

Ta-da!

Disclaimer: Not that you have not been warned...

Share a secret & I'll spill mine too!

The Singapore Women's Weekly ~ April Issue

In the "Share a secret" of this month's issue, the lady talk of marrying a guy 4 yrs her junior. To say truth, after reading the story, I think the whole story had nothing much to do with age or watsoever. It is more due to her husband's own insecurity. They had actually dated for a few yrs b4 they got married and yet after marriage,the husband was no longer showing physical affections towards the lady and even after dragging for weeks before they made love for the first time as a married couple, the most incredulous thing to hear from a husband is, "Why did you have to force me?" (huh??!!!)

Few weeks later, this lady realized she had missed her period and a pregnancy test confirmed that she was going to be a mother.

Then one day this lady came by an sms from the husband's close female colleague saying, "Does this mean we can no longer be more than friends, darling? Don't worry, I understand your situation".

The lady pressed her husband for an explanation and he finally confessed that a month before the wedding, he'd begun having feelings for this colleague but was too afraid to call off the marriage. Then he started wondering whether he was too young for marriage but went ahead anyway to save his parents' faces. Not only that, he had continued his "emotional affair" after their marriage but assured her that he had never had sex with dat woman. He also assured her that since they were expecting a baby now, he'd change and work things out.

They stayed married to each other though not much had changed except for the fact the lady would be due to give birth any day. She asked herself, "How did things end up like this? Does the difference in our ages have a role to play in this tragedy?"

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Frankly speaking, my heart goes out to most of the ladies in "share a secret" issue each month as most of the time, they were the victims.

In this scenario, if this were to happen to me, I would definitely leave the guy. Be it "emotional" or physical affair, it has happened and my guy's heart is no longer ard with me, what is a marriage without love, sharing and closeness? I definitely won't be able to tolerate this kind of marriage. Even if he is "repentent" (or so he may claim), the trust is broken and things would never be the same again. I'd rather leave my man.

To say truth, emotional affair... hmm... I guess my EHTB had one too? Well, he may or may not put his whole heart into it though I sure know he would seek the lady thru' chat whenever he feel lonely or down, but I know definitely the lady has given her heart.

And I knew that lady way before he did. We were once great online friends. She once confronted me whether a certain online nickname is related to me. I denied it because I had never want to mix my real life into the virtual world. Whatsmore, she's probing into a matter which was a real deep pain and conflict in my heart then. I denied totally. Because she came to know my EHTB is my husband and was close with him then (not too sure abt now... cant be bothered with my EHTB's life. We're living separately anyway, he can do as he please but bear in mind this is vice versus as well!), she started avoiding me (I had not even blamed her for it!) It's real sad to lose a close frd liddat. But well, wat to do?

And you think I'd done nothing abt it? When I 1st knew that dat girlfriend of mine was lost and confused due to my EHTB's online character, I had confronted my EHTB abt it. Cos that girlfriend had told me he had vaguely agreed to a meet-up sometime soon. But my EHTB denied it. He also told me they were just online frds and he had not expressed any form of love towards her or watsoever. But that girlfriend told me that this character had even "proposed" to her! At that time, I trust him and put it all down to his younger brother's doing in his virtual world acct. (But now thinking back... a 13 yr-old would not hv been dat capable of swooning a 20+++ lady esp. when it was my brother-in-law. I knew him) Plus, much later, I saw poems which had been once composed for me and new poems for her too! @##@$!#@!^~!

And then I saw smses, of her calling him "Dear" and "baby". My EHTB was so afraid I would check his hp (i think so cos he'd usually check mine though I nvr gave a hoo-ha abt it, must be 心虚...) that he would hide his hp within the hp cover under the pillow, within the pillow-case and under his head!! But I came across his hp anyway. Cos the more so he tried to hide, the more it seems suspicious. She denied any love connotations to that. By then, I had totally confessed in her that the particular online character was my husband but our marriage is totally on the rocks. I had even told her almost my whole story with this jerk of a guy. She must not have known that there are other ppl in my EHTB's phone calling him "honey" and "darling" too! (Well even if she had known, he cld always put it to that the girls threw themselves at him out of adorations; sigh... the way a woman trust in you when she loves you, i really grit my teeth to know how each time a girl is being lead on this way!) She even asked me isn't there any way at all to salvage the marriage? I told her straight, no. To say truth, though I had knew her firsthand, I think she still trust my EHTB much more rather than me. She was extremely wary of me but I had not even done no crime! Thanks to a chatlog I came across btw my EHTB and her so I know fully well wat she thinks of me (and that chatlog was recorded after the confession to her that yes, that particular idiot online character was my husband and no thank you for ur well-meaning, I hv no intention to patch up with him or watsoever) Well... watever... sad to evolve to this stage though. I dun mind being good frd with her still, if only we cld get over the past and embarassment is no issue to me cos I dun mind at all unless she does. It's all a big misunderstanding anyway. No evil intentions. (Am not capable of taking over da world anyway xD)

Either way, that guy is doomed to be outta my life. Regardless of wat he msg:

Sms reads:

Dear honey, after

all these months of

being apart, I wanna

let you know that I

truly missed you

much. I really hope

you could

reconsider of a

reconciliation. This

feeling. . . i cant

take it anymore. I

love you. Your

Faithfully, hubby.

6.20pm 23/3/06

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I had just chatted to another online frd of mine on Friday nite. She asked yet again, "Cannot salvage meh?"

I told her, even when there was this one time after delivering our kid to school and we were walking away from school together, he had asked me, "Shall we have a drink at the hawkers?"

I had turned him down. No, I do not want to be with him even for a drink of water. Full stop. I am not prepared to give him any chance.

“你怕你心软是吗？”

After I hang up the phone, this got me thinking. 我会心软吗？不可以！这会重蹈覆辙，这太可怕了！

I had told this frd of mine abt the nightmare I had arguing with my EHTB in my dream dat morning. Even the argument in my dream was hurtful enuff for me to warrant a divorce! I rmbed thinking of rounding up witnesses to help me in my divorce in my dream! :O

The next morning, I dreamt of him again. He was in a car with me or something. Cant quite rmb da details. Nooooooooo!!

Please dear Mr dream god, spare me of him. I beg you, plssssssss?

I had cried way too much. He is just not worth it. Pls at least eliminate him outta my dreams. I nid my beauty sleep.

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Legend:

In case if you had not read my previous posts and dun unstand wat EHTB means. It means this.

EHTB = ExHusband-To-be

Thank you for your interest in my blog.

Descriptions of a Weird Dream (nightmare?)

Had a real weird dream today.

I dreamt I was herding some lil chickens jumping over obstacles after obstacles, in a hurry to...

See my cousin deliver! To help her!

Was I one of da lil chicks too?

I arrived to see her curling up on the bed naked, saying that other than the two times she helped her mother deliver, she didn't know that childbirth would be so painful. She sed dat this was da first time she had delivered and didn't know it would be so painful. She kept crying, “很痛、很痛...” :o :'( I felt pain for her too. I was like just in time to see her in pain. (?) Didn't see any baby ard anyway, just her lying on bed moaning in pain :S

Then next scenario was of me and my EHTB somewhere at a dark parade square (seemed like just finished with grocery shopping or something). We were both carrying some bags of stuffs. And then somehow or rather, he put down all his bags of stuffs, went over to hold our boy and seemingly want me to carry all da load home. I tot it was extremely unfair! And then we were at a kitchen (seemed like my relative's home) and had a big quarrel. The Mediacorp actor 王世南 was in the kitchen to witness our quarrel but he was there as my uncle (huh?). I only remember the quarrel was so hurtful or something and then tot of divorce came to my mind. And then I tot of getting my uncle (this 王世南) as my witness to prove that my EHTB had been rather uncouth to me.

Really weird...

Haiz... dreams... reflections of our daily lives? 日有所思，夜有所梦。

Gosh!!! Grant me some good dreams pls! I wanna sweet dreams!

Finally the letter to proceed...

Finally the letter to proceed wat I had been waiting for! It's really silly they have to break up into 2 cases though. =.=''

This time was a demand of payment of $300 vs the payment of $200 for the last case. Both cases have yet to really start though :S

Well, consider it might amount to 5 to 8 grands if you seek professional help outside... this $500 is really peanuts.

But wat a long time to wait. 唉！

It's been really long. Yea... since 24 Oct 2004 when I had made up my mind.

When all's over how wld I feel? Gee.. i really dun know. Just take a step at a time.

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Recently read a book titled "Suicide - The Forever Decision: for those thinking about sucide and for those who know, love or counsel them" by Paul G.Quinnett (in Chinese version, translated by 林志欣: “别告诉我你的名字叫自杀”)

Don't get me wrong though, I'm not suicidal. Just that I read these kinda books exploring into human thinking & psychology on & off. Hell, wasn't even really in da mood for this book just dat the title caught my attention & I borrowed it. Finally sat down & almost forcefully made myself almost complete the book one day at the library reading corner (save a few pages cos it was getting late)

Some of wat the author said caught my attention.

"Who says we have to live by the philosophy 'If you aren't performing, you'll have to escape from current situation?'"

"This strips us of the freedom to live as we like. It deprives us to be happy as a normal being. It tells us not to be content with what we are doing currently. It does not allow a student to have a report card with result "C" yet still think he/she had benefited and learnt some valuable lessons in school."

"This 'either this or that', 'it's either black or white', 'either you win or you lose' kind of thinking becomes rather dangerous when we meet up with life's crises. This is because when we become embedded into a fixed thinking pattern, believing there is only one way to go about solving our problems, one way to go on living our lives or that you can be with only that one person or that you can only do one type of job, we keep struggling to keep in line with that vision and hence we deprive ourselves all the rights a living organism deserves on this planet earth and that is - adaptabilty. If we cannot allow ourselves to trip at all along the many pits in our lives, even the tiniest pitfall would be unbearable to us."

How true... now this gives me the excuse to enjoy myself even while loafing. La la la di da... ♪

棽凱倫小説 makes me laugh!

棽凱倫小説 is meant to be some romantic, fantasy love stories targeted at some girl/woman day-dreamers (like me).

But living in a practical society, I've come to realize some hilarious, notable, illogical points in her novels.

First of all, ALMOST all the main leading male and female characters in her novels have to be 校花 or 学园王子. Either that or if they are working, they have to be ex校花 or ex学园王子 too! And if they are working, they are almost DEFINITELY the cream of the crop ala successful businessman/woman (young, capable, handsome or beautiful and the talking point & focus of the company) and it goes without saying that if they are in school, they would be the role-model students their peers look up to ~ excelling in sports and studies. =.=''

They come MOSTLY from affluent and influential families. Uncle occupies a seat in da white house, Auntie is a scientist residing in US, dad is a reputable businessman etc.. They have chauffeurs (a Roll Royce for each family member to ride in driven by the chauffeurs @.@), personal maids and butlers. A gardener too, to tend to the big arrays of fauna in their SUPER-LUXURIOUS homes, never complete without fountains in da already cramped country such as Hong Kong.

None of the female lead needs any make-up. Natural is beauty for they are ALL blessed. And they look beautiful at any angle ~ be it while sleeping or eating. They are ALMOST the most beautiful women in da world!

(and I wonder how cld they be da MOST beautiful when 棽凱倫 makes almost every female lead in ea of her novel to be so; maybe one day we should have a beauty contest between all da female leads in 棽凱倫小説 to decide on da ultimate winner ba. Hmm..)

The female leads have impossible figures. I read about one yest. Her figure measurements read: 36, 22, 35!
(天啊！Won't she break into half easily at e waist?!? Btw, ish this barbie doll's classic measurements too?)

And their costumes! OMG! Of course, I do realized 棽凱倫 have been writing even before I was born. (The fashion of those days eh?) Though it sounds soothing and ravishing to da ears when she described how each apparel the main leads were wearing matches their handbags, shoes, bf/gf & even cars and dat how some fashion clothings were even flown in fr Paris, Italy, Japan etc (you name it), to really piece em out in real life, the overall dressing turns out to be quite obiang and rather flashy. More like 唱七月歌台的装扮 or those dressings of opera performers！
(But usually I would just skip or glimpse thru her descriptions of the main leads' clothing. Just know that they were wearing red or yellow and roughly what style etc will do. Wont put to heart whether they are wearing chiffon, tartans or watever da hell.. well only sometimes will i seriously pore over her desciptions)

They always have a 世交的青梅竹马的哥哥或妹妹 who would be in love with em secretly or faithfully throughout the years of growing up. In case if they fall out with the main male or female lead, they can always turn to their 青梅竹马 for solace... out of the many girlfriends or boyfriends they could have had =.=''

Lastly... after reading quite some numbers of her novels, (I didnt hv to buy em, they were loan to me or just lying ard in da house, so just pick em up to read, fantasize and luff lor..) I realized she actually "CUT & COPY" some of her 台词。I spotted the EXACT same croony and mushy lines and scenarios in different novels!!!

So pick up one of these 棽凱倫小説 if the TV's Just For Laugh is over. Mwammy! It isn't over! At least, we still have 棽凱倫小説...

FM 100.3 安娜你好！

至安娜：

如果他没有出馗，但对于家里费用一点也没有供献过又时时跟你讨钱用。家里有女佣却说他照顾孩子工不可没，但晚间丢下一句：“出去一会儿” 却凌晨两、三点才归来 （有时还更晚、甚至天亮才回家）。答应我会找份安定的工作但我已等了七年了（今天七周年）！去年对他提出正式离婚后的翼日，留下一封似遗书的信又失踪。报了警、把他找回来了之后，提及离婚便对我动粗。试问，这男人还值得我等吗？！—正在办理离婚手续当中的伤心女。

~ 13/12/2005

Cyber

啦啦啦♪

Sms beep!

Reads:

LOL. Wrong place to
wait for bus. Should
have waited at the
bus stop just
outside XXX
Poly. . . . Its a good
thing too.. Maybe
that you didn't reply
and tell me if you
were at the pet
shop or not cos i
might have just went
over and hug you.
Dont know why this
strong feeling of
yearning to hug you
tight since weeks
ago. Maybe im just
outta my mind. . .
Just maybe. This
strange feeling. . .
Anyway, have a nice
day. Take care.

3.13pm
17/3/06

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苏慧伦 ~ 不要说爱我 ~ 失恋万岁专辑

不要说爱我

Click here to listen to song
(音乐伴奏)

忘掉吧我的老情人
别在意也别说出来

时间已冲淡一切
心情也没有季节
把过去放回你心中

*不要问我谁对谁错
你的爱在我回忆中
这几年习惯自由
也没有太多烦忧
那过去就像一阵风

喔... 喔...

#不要再说爱我
不要再说想我
现在我们之间
只能当当朋友
落下太多眼泪
等过太多黑夜
现在我一个人
爱情我不想问

不要再说爱我
不要再说想我
现在我们之间
只能当当朋友
落下太多眼泪
等过太多黑夜
现在我一个人
爱情我不想问

重复 * #

Another Blog With Funny Jokes!

This is a joke somewhat similar to a joke my pen-pal told me years ago. The first real dirty joke that I had really heard of then, except it was in a version about a dad & a daughter.

Lil birdie

A man is lying on an empty beach, subathing in the nude. He looks up to see a little girl approaching him. He looks frantically for something to cover himself with. He quickly
grabs a magazine he was reading and puts it over himself.

The little girl comes up and asks what is under the magazine.

"A sleeping bird" the man says. "Don't disturb it".

The girl leaves, and the man falls asleep shortly after.

When he wakes up he is in a hospital with his crotch in extreme pain. The doctors ask him what happened to him. He tells them that he told a little girl it was a bird, and then went to sleep.

The doctors sent police to the beach to find the girl. When they find her, they ask her what happened.

She told them, "I got curious about the bird that the man hid. When I woke it up and began to play with it, it spit on me. So I broke its neck, cracked its eggs, and lit its nest on fire."


Source: http://spaces.msn.com/tweeta/ Feb 16 2006

This ish also nicish!

With Age Does Come Wisdom

A guy is 71 years old and loves to fish. He was sitting in his boat the other day when he heard a voice say, "Pick me up." He looked around and couldn't see any one. He thought he was dreaming when he heard the voice say again, "Pick me up." He looked in the water and there, floating on the top, was a frog.

The man said, "Are you talking to me?" The frog said, "Yes, I'm talking to you. Pick me up. Then, kiss me and I'll turn into the most beautiful woman you have ever seen. I'll then give you more sexual pleasure that you ever could have dreamed of."

The man looked at the frog for a short time, reached over, picked it up carefully, and placed it in his front breast pocket. Then the frog said, "What, are you nuts? Didn't you hear what I said? I said kiss me and I will give you sexual pleasures like you have never had."

He opened his pocket, looked at the frog and said, "Nah, at my age I'd rather have a talking frog."

Source: http://boringsonya.blogspot.com/

Now... this is funneh!

A woman was helping her husband set up his computer, and at the appropriate point in the process, she told him that he would now need to enter a password. Something he could remember easily and will use each time he has to log on.
The husband was in a rather amorous mood and figured he would try for the shock effect to bring this to his wife's attention. So, when the computer asked him to enter his password, he made it plainly obvious to his wife that he was keying in....

P... E... N... I... S...

His wife fell off her chair laughing when the computer replied:

*PASSWORD REJECTED. NOT LONG ENOUGH

Source: http://boringsonya.blogspot.com/

A Real Life Noteworthy Quote

My friend told me this jokingly today:

每一个成功女人的背后，都有一个可恶的男人。

How true...

At least for da both of us =.=''

The road ahead of meh...

Almost a week back, I went to a bank. There on its advertising tv, you see the usual portrait of a young family embasking in total family bliss. A young daddy & a young mummy (all so unbelievably good-looking & can afford condos) playing ard wif their son & daughter (it's always usually 1 boy & 1 girl - nice number & blend of genders) in their well-furnished apartment. Then the scene moves on to them shopping at the supermarket, their happiness being ard with each other beamed evidently on their faces for all the envious to see.

Except dat I wasnt envious. This kinda advertisements make me wanna cry.

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I had worked so hard before & achieved wat in my line then cld possibly achieved. I quited to move on to a better prospect.

My marriage got me down & I was distracted & still am lost right now. I hadnt had much education (consider peers of my era) & had been working seriously since a tender age to support my family fr marriage. I am still considered young but time waits for no man (or woman at dat). I am not on track with my career at all & am in constant fear of losing my son & my sanity & peace to DAT GUY.

I have had enuff of wallowing in grief & self-pity.

Like wat I told D, "I am tired of moping ard in da house, heading for nowhere, talking to ppl online who are equally sad if not more so than me. And I dun like to work for my dad."

Surely mediocrecy is not in my blood.. or otherwise? Eh? *confused*

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有一首歌是这麽唱着：

“如果把自己一生託付在你的手中
对你来说是否算是负担
我不怕未来日子是崎岖还是平坦
只问你的爱坚定吗？”

歌名： 疑问句

歌手：周慧敏

专辑名称：流言

我的人生是你的负担吗？

你的爱不够坚定吗？

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Hmm... wat can I do now? If it is so hard to be suddenly ahead or even on track, why not take baby steps?

Mopiko for some of the rashes & itches. Put your focus elsewhere (like beautifying urself or take time to enjoy urself) & the tendency to scratch wld be gone.

Wise decision to approach D. Just made an effort to dress up & went out for dinner wif D just now.

Painted my fingernails & toenails (ignore the ugly patch on my foot, it'll go away in time as it had before :X)

Have a direction (like wat D sed) & my baby step directions are: -

1) Settle wat i hv to for Dad
2) Start the ball rolling wif D. 听话，照做。
3) Get the contact fr D to see e alternative lawyer
4) Afterwhich, send the other lawyer the necessary doc (if i decide to go on ahead wif her)
5）Get a date for the theory test for dat Driver's License! *been nudged countless times, time for REAL actions!*
6) Check out Career fair to see if there is any chance of furthering my education even if it seems real bleak to meh atm (in terms of credentials & the amt of time & energy I hv to spare)

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Let the truth be known, if childcare biz does not entail meagre pay & high level of commitment, I wld not hesitate to go for it (how lovely it is to play & tell stories to children! I cld apply this at home too!) It is the meagre pay that pinches me & I cannot afford dat.. ouch!

Volunteer work is groovy! But volunteer also means that it wld not pay to clothe & feed you. =.=''

Else occupations of ard this nature.. well u noe.. how much do they pay?

My real interest is in psychology. But how many yrs of dedicated education does it take me to arrive at a position of being able not only to earn my own keeps, but to support myself, son & maid, put food on the table & roof over our heads & to shut off claims that I had been neglecting my son fr my EHTB, before we all starved to death?

Else putting test tubes in the test tube runner to run seems a rather cool idea to meh. Minimal interactions. Less conflicts (oredy bothered wif other aspects of my life), hardly a need to talk eh? Go to work at a certain time in da morning & knock off sharp when time's up. Fixed & short working hours. Tasks so mundane dat you can memorize backwards & perform wif ur eyes closed. After work, watever you do is none of work's biz. Work is work, your life is your life. You cld probably spent quantity & quality time wif ur kid wif less stress & hours at work. But wait a min! Choto choto! How much does this pay???

*Disclaimer: the above is ridiculously tot up & if wat i had described veers sharply off the eclipse of truth, just bear in mind this ~ it's all my imaginations dear..

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Watever.. to hell wif bizarre, unpractical tots..

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Meanwhile, gotta take off my make-up, contact lens & prolly try on that cool facial mask dat I just bought after bath.

Hmm.. I love baths!

^_^

I Wanna Be Just Like You, D

Thank you for your crabby feast today, I really enjoyed myself.

You gave me someone to look up to, you are exactly the someone dat I know personally at such close contact I would like to model myself after.

You do volunteer work too, cool! *Thumbs up*

You have this ability to support your whole family & you drive a nice mercs. You recruit many under you.

You decide what you want, wat is worth & wat is not. You buy wat you like & give yummy treats to your friends. You offer helpful advices & tell jokes. You're charming, pretty, witty, capable & resourceful.

Whenever when I'm with ya, I feel a peace of mind cos I know you'll take care of the ppl ard you & never let em down.

I wanna be just like you!

=)