喜欢与爱

咳，喜欢是浅浅的爱，
爱是深深的喜欢。

3/31/2006

Quote from THE* DAY* LOST IN THE WORLD

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Cranberries - Dying In The Sun

Do you remember
The things we used to say?
I feel so nervous
When I think of yesterday

How could I let things
Get to me so bad?
How did I let things get to me?

*Like dying in the sun
Like dying in the sun
Like dying in the sun
Like dying*

Will you hold on to me
I am feeling frail
Will you hold on to me
We will never fail

I wanted to be so perfect you see
I wanted to be so perfect

一个巧合的意外

向左走向右走 ~ 梁咏琪

一个巧合的意外
变成一场最执着的迷恋
甜蜜在梦幻的一瞬间
留下了真实的思念

两条平行线总有交汇的一天

梁咏琪这首歌唱得好。

我和他相遇，是在很巧合的情况下。他失恋了，我也失恋。两个人同属同一个星座。喜欢的也是同一个星座的人。我和他生日差两天，我们喜欢的人的生日也只差一天。

因为我觉得网络的一个交友站很耗时，所以我差一点就没机会和他结缘。但，在决定“休长假”之前，我还是客客气气地回应每一个留言。他的网页，连他的一张照片也没有，唯独一张漫画人物的图片。我起先还对他抱有怀疑，认为他也可能只不过是又另一个想泡漂亮妹妹的男生。给我的留言，还挺油腔滑调的，但起码还有创意。由于我们属同一组星座，然后，又由于我不经意的随口信口开河留言在他的留言板上说：如果我们的生日相近，说不定，还可以一起庆祝呢！哪知，他的生日真的只差我两天！然后，他便回应说："So it's a date then!" 当时的我，心理还有点谴责自己为什么那么口快！因为，在他之前，我已遇过很多很多的男性网友了。他们大多都给我很不好的印象。而且，我失恋的对象，也是从那网站认识的。况且，都已经告诉自己要“休站”了，不是吗？但君子一言，驷马难追。况且，多接触不同的人，对我的事业，是很好的一个磨练。所以，没有情人的我们，竟然相约情人节那晚一起去吃饭……

第一次遇见他时，就有莫名的感觉。我并不是对他一见倾心，但当时的我，竟然在我看似毫无逻辑性下地告诉我自己，我绝对无法忘了他在我身旁开着车子的那一幕。当时的我，也对这不由自主的想法给弄得莫名奇妙了，甚至给吓着了。

情人节至今，我和他碰面了12次。短短不到一年，我竟慢慢地喜欢上他了。

在情路上，发生在他身上的事与我很相近。

或许，我们真是像梁咏琪所唱的“两条平行线”。但，即使我们“交汇”了，却怎么也擦不出火花……

喜欢。

我决定了。不管你会不会喜欢我，我还是会去默默地喜欢着你。

不管这叫欣赏也好、还是肉欲也好（虽然我从不觉得是那么一回事），但男女之间的爱慕，不都是从对对方有好感起开始的？不管是什么，不都要有个开始？

而我对你的喜欢，不管看似多么不可思议，就连我自己也难以理解与相信，但自从和你相处的第一刻起，仿佛就已种下了情苗。

我想你。我在想着你。思念着你的一举一动、思念着你的笑容、思念你嘴角哼着歌的模样。想着你那让我窝心的微笑、想着你傻气的模样、想着和你在一起，那平静与随和的气氛。

我不知道我会喜欢你多久。因为生命有太多、太多的可能与不可能，所以我不敢承诺。

想念你时，有时会让我很快乐；但有时，又会让我很哀伤。因为，我这想念你的心情，不知会否被你接纳，但又不能让你知道。


单恋的心情，是痛苦的、是复杂的，但也有快乐。
因为试问，即使是世间上的对对情侣，有哪些是和他们真心喜欢的人在一起？有哪些人从没真正尝过爱？有哪些人，对于“爱”这字眼还迷糊着，不了解爱是什么？所以，能遇到一个能让自己发自内心，真正去喜欢与思念的一个人，已可说是可遇不可求了。



我…… 愿你幸福。

缘分

如果我们有缘，终将还是会再在一起的！

但此时，我预祝你能尽快找到你的幸福；即使那女孩不会是我。

套我在某处看到的一句话：

I wanted you to be happy - so i never told you the truth。

因为我喜欢你，所以我祈求你的快乐。我不能和你在一起没有关系，但我希望你过得好。

你要过得好，过得开心哦！当我能完全独立时，能不成任何人的累赘，而你还单身的话，或许，到时候我会再去找你。但现在，你若有中意的心仪对象，我还是会100%地替你加油的！

加油吧！

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Let me blow air kisses to you...

王力宏 ~ Kiss Goodbye


Baby 不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手 彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口 但 不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心 好好欣赏你的美

幸福搭配悲伤 痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪 不能测试 爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走 去跟随

*每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you good bye
爱情的滋味 此刻 我终于最明白*

幸福搭配悲伤 痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪 不能测试 爱的重量
付出的爱收不回 但欠你的我不能给
我才明白 爱最真实的滋味

Repeat *

HO 我终于最明白
我终于明白

Repeat *

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I'm finally saying bye bye to my maid. I wont get anymore maid. Time to train my kid to be independent. Time for me to face up to all the nitty gritty practicalities all by myself. Time to deal with what i can do and wanna do. Time to build up bond with kid, the one that matters most in my life despite my negligence. He's the one i've been working so hard for. Hey c'mon, it'll be fun and great exp. Forget about how clean your house should look. Have fun! Imagine washing and hanging clothes with your kid. Imagine cooking together. Imagine doing household chores together. It'll be fun ;)

As for him... my big infatuation... my 遗憾 for the moment... Time is not right, darling... I can't tend to you.. Look, i hv nth to give to you. Whatsmore, i don't even know whether u like me back or not! Plus you're still single and eligible, you might find some nice pure gal along the way to love ya know?

Those moments when i've gone out with you... even though we've never held hands nor kiss or even hug... we've never even taken a pic together using hp! I do treasure all those moments. It's like the lyrics of this song above:

每一次和你分开 深深的被你打败

每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦难以释怀

I hope you'll be doing good as always. That you'll find your enthusiasm in life soon. If we're meant to be, we will come together one day. I like you, but let me bury this pain in my heart. 和你在一起时真的是：

“幸福搭配悲伤 痛是在我心交叉

挫折的眼泪 不能测试 爱的重量

付出的爱收不回 但欠你的我不能给

我才明白 爱最真实的滋味 ”

silhouette

Felt very tired today after having not much sleep and having to reach office by 9.30am for course. Was late in fact. Took a direct bus there and reached there close to 9.50am.

So at 11pm+, started to take a bath.

Looking at myself in the mirror, i scrunched my tousled "outta bed" hair (cos i just woke up at abt 10pm+; i conked out at 7pm+) just when the steamy jet of water made part of my hair wet and i tot:

Gawd, i look so sultry and sexy!

Haha... but the emotions behind this sultry facade is in upheaval. No one really knows baby...

我想念 “天使” :S

When i was done and went to my room, i stood nude in front of my dressingtable mirror. Wow..! i mean i am no perfect gal. I may hv some cellulite on my thighs and droopy butt and all.. but overall i still look good. Those perky nice rounded breasts, nice hips in proportion to waist... still huggable and desirable... haha!

Becos i wasnt quite dry yet, i decided to not wear my clothes immediately (in fact as i'm typing this, i still have yet to put on my clothes!) but just lay down on my bed on my stomach typing stuff on my another blog, checking my email on my laptop. I saw him logged unto msn. So i opened up another acct and started to talk to him. I was still naked.. but no, i dun hv any dirty thought running thru my mind at all. Really just trying to be comfortable and dry myself that's all.

The word "need" is just too cliche and overused. To me, it's a desire... not a need. You can control yourself if you don't allow yourself to give in. Someone told me of late that there's a US campaign running right now: "no one ever got AIDS from masturbation"

So... i wont die just becos i'm not actively fucking anyone.

I wish you love

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss
But more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all
When snowflakes fall
I wish you love