Finally the letter to proceed...

Finally the letter to proceed wat I had been waiting for! It's really silly they have to break up into 2 cases though. =.=''

This time was a demand of payment of $300 vs the payment of $200 for the last case. Both cases have yet to really start though :S

Well, consider it might amount to 5 to 8 grands if you seek professional help outside... this $500 is really peanuts.

But wat a long time to wait. 唉！

It's been really long. Yea... since 24 Oct 2004 when I had made up my mind.

When all's over how wld I feel? Gee.. i really dun know. Just take a step at a time.

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Recently read a book titled "Suicide - The Forever Decision: for those thinking about sucide and for those who know, love or counsel them" by Paul G.Quinnett (in Chinese version, translated by 林志欣: “别告诉我你的名字叫自杀”)

Don't get me wrong though, I'm not suicidal. Just that I read these kinda books exploring into human thinking & psychology on & off. Hell, wasn't even really in da mood for this book just dat the title caught my attention & I borrowed it. Finally sat down & almost forcefully made myself almost complete the book one day at the library reading corner (save a few pages cos it was getting late)

Some of wat the author said caught my attention.

"Who says we have to live by the philosophy 'If you aren't performing, you'll have to escape from current situation?'"

"This strips us of the freedom to live as we like. It deprives us to be happy as a normal being. It tells us not to be content with what we are doing currently. It does not allow a student to have a report card with result "C" yet still think he/she had benefited and learnt some valuable lessons in school."

"This 'either this or that', 'it's either black or white', 'either you win or you lose' kind of thinking becomes rather dangerous when we meet up with life's crises. This is because when we become embedded into a fixed thinking pattern, believing there is only one way to go about solving our problems, one way to go on living our lives or that you can be with only that one person or that you can only do one type of job, we keep struggling to keep in line with that vision and hence we deprive ourselves all the rights a living organism deserves on this planet earth and that is - adaptabilty. If we cannot allow ourselves to trip at all along the many pits in our lives, even the tiniest pitfall would be unbearable to us."

How true... now this gives me the excuse to enjoy myself even while loafing. La la la di da... ♪