Hang On & On my way...

Abt appetite - sometimes I eat a lot, sometimes a little... but most times regardless whether I am full or not, I'm still left unsatisfied. Why? (I hope it wont lead to 爆食症吧？ Eat to forget my problems cos I have kept myself in check that I definitely wld not touch alcohol or drugs. My suppression of emotions is bound to harm myself in one way or another. I'm lucky that I am still slender, at the moment... :S)

Abt waking up in the morning - I'm trying... really trying (consider that I dun hv anyone to help me with) to wake up early, sleep as early (if I can just sleep & 甘愿 to sleep), forget my problems, the lack of care & concern fr the one I desire the most (parental love) & he doesnt know how (will end up in big quarrel; forget it). I have type myself up a simple timetable to follow but ea time even if I wake up early enuff in the morning, I wld think of the things I wld hv to do, the possible angry, inconsiderate & insensitive face I wld hv to face (my dad as my boss)that I wld tossed & turned myself back into bed. And when I wake up, it wld be like 10am+, 11am+ or even 12pm++! I wld like to have some kind of a healthy excercise in the morning like jogging though I had always disdain my lack of proper gym/jogging attire. I need lots and lotsa time in this case that no one is able to hear me out & comfort me...

When I am down, I always tell myself, "hang on..."