Lost ~ and wondering abt in Seng Kang...

I'm lost
I'm lost
I'm lost
I'm lost
I'm lost
I'm lost I'm lost I'm lost I'm lost I'm lost I'm lost I'm lost I'm lost I'm lost

& oh gosh... the library's right click function's disabled! I cant even copy & paste. tsu...

Am at Sengkang Library. :) Can you find me?

Sigh... was wondering abt... really totally lost. Library doesnt hv my familiar Chinese imput so that I can express myself exuberantly in that language as and when I like. Sigh... the disablement of the right click function really inconvenienced me.
I cant cut & paste the word I found on the thesaurus to search for its meaning on the internet dictionary...

Didnt wanna go my dad's work place. That's y even though I woke up at abt 8am or even before that, I turned my head, covered myself with blanket & continued sleeping.
Sleep to escape. Had many weird dreams these months. Today was of meeting up with my fav childhood cousin & we took a bus. There was a pervert sitting beside her trying to be funny with her. I shooed the molester away. The strangest thing was of cos since both of us were sitting in a two-seater, how the heck did that funny (black?) guy appeared sitting beside my cousin at the window? But then again, it's all a dream. I guess it was due to my maternal uncle calling me yest in regards to let out my house for this particular cousin's sis that cause me to dream of her. Well to a certain extent, I realized the situations in my dreams were caused by wat I faced & heard in reality. I am able to analysed them but unable to pep myself up to Go! Go! Go! :S No drive in meh... I feel like an empty, abandoned & neglected hollow vessel...

Talking abt dream, here's another one that I still hv impression of. Well, just the brief details to share cos the memory of it is fading away...

I was somewhere in a pub but a strangely brightly-lit "pub". The scene and the walls at the pub were a glaring white (the kind of angel-white u see on tv when god is abt to take someone away to heaven) and there were quite some ppl sporting colorful clothes in it. Out of the blue came a gang leading by its gangster head & its lao da actually asked me to go pubbing with him! I siam of cos! Dun wanna get into trouble with loose guys and the head of a gang at that! Totally not my type gosh! Dun wanna date just any guy...

Went into metro prior to plonking myself down at this computer in the library. Browsing thru the display of bags, shoes, clothes. Sported a very nice pair of bronze high heel sandals with dangling frilly - Very lady-like, suitable for wearing out to dinner (yet I think it is ok even if I wear them with pants). Cost abt 50++ bucks. Some nice clothes ard too. Yet I deeply suspect buying more pretty things will not make me any happier than I already not am (cos the euphoria wears off right after the next day you bought the merchandise） & will instead land myself in the situation where I cant fork out my money for other necessary needs.

I feel like crying I feel like crying I feel like crying I feel like crying I feel like crying I feel like crying I feel like crying I feel like crying I feel like crying

I feel like crying
I feel like crying
I feel like crying
I feel like crying
I feel like crying
I feel like crying
I feel like crying
I feel like crying
I feel like crying

These best sum up abt how I am feeling today. Weepy dear old lil' meh...