in times of emergency, who'd u grab?

As wat a friend has pointed out,

if i am still harping on the past of wat's happened between me & my exhtb, i must not hv quite gotten over him.

it struck me then.

guess that's the thing abt being once married. Somehow, one way or another, you wld still hv some kind of unexplainable deep feelings for the other person, wanting to defend for the other person even when he's no longer substantial in your life. It's a sort of an invisible instinct, a dormant switch so well hidden that you are not aware of it yourself. Until perhaps the day as dramatic as in a show when some crisis breaks out, wld u see your true self emerging, that dormant switch finally triggered on, frantically searching for the person who matters to you most (if he/she is around in the vicinity), wanting to make sure he/she is safe before you wld rest your mind & heart. It doesnt matter even if u already hv a sweetheart by then. Perhaps after settling your current squeeze, you'd still go on to making sure your ex is safe too.

you can nvr deny things that has taken place before.

when u hv loved a person so deeply before, irregardless that it's all in the past, that was the magnitude of love you hv given out to the person. it's a fact that cannot be denied.

as wat another friend has pointed out, if you take away the sex, husband and wife are in reality very good friends.

Hope that after all the heat has passed, we can still maintain as good friend, my exhtb...

our marriage shall be officially dissolved in march 07.

be well.
and get better and better, exhtb.
come march, you shall be known as ex-h instead of exhtb.