It's ironic.

Yeah... even after the unrequited love, I'm still smiling.

It's my trademark smile.

Something's been bothering me and I just figured out why.

The guy in question fr his approach to me was telling me that this was a serious issue he's dealing and NOTE that he isn't smiling.

*frowns* So? Does this strip me of my rights to smile?

You know, sometimes when i smile, it doesn't mean i'm happy. But I'm smiling for the sake of my love ones and friends to reassurance them that i'm doing well and fine. It's not that i hv no sense of awareness of situations around me or that i truly think certain matters are to be taken lightly.

And if I'm not wrong, he fell for me initially becos of my bubbliness, cheerfulness and my smile.

YES. Get it. He likes me for my smile in the first place. Yet ironically, he's now finding my smile disturbing and non-serious.

I think it is he who has some serious issues to deal with. He's completely not making sense of himself by liking something that he really doesn't want in the end. Too idealistic.

I think this guy doesn't understand my pains and mostly, he's not looking deep enuff. He scratches the surface and ponders, and scratches somemore on the superficial, ponders yet some more and still, couldn't get the true meaning out of anything. Come to think of it, as much as he's a kind nice guy, he's under-estimated a lot of things & 's been living in his own world & school of tots & ideals. And he's just not brave enuff.

I guess wat really bugs me now is that why did i hold him up in so much high regards in the first place?

Oh well.

He's still a kind nice guy though.

*flashes my trademark smile* ^_^n