I wonder when will I be TOTALLY awaken?

A Spiritual Interpretation of Taurus Rising

The following interpretation of Taurus Rising is from Your Spiritual Path Report.

"From the spiritual perspective you are expressing the power of desire on all levels of your being. On the subjective level you are able to communicate the intensity of your passion, whether it be in terms of your career, your relationships, or any project you undertake. You believe there is no point in doing something unless you do it well, and you strive for perfection in every area of your life. At the same time, you are constantly aware of your comfort zone, and may shy away from activities that present impossible challenge.

Throughout your life you will develop a personal style for expressing your desires, perhaps learning to moderate them, or perhaps learning more and more skillful means of satisfying them while also presenting a socially graceful face to the world. At the same time your spiritual yearnings lead you to the best expression of your being on this higher level. Finally, you learn to direct your will so that all efforts satisfy both your material desires and your spiritual aspirations. You may find from time to time that you are faced with this question: are my actions being driven by material desires, or am I following my spiritual aspirations? The answer helps to refine your awareness of your deepest motivations.

Proper care of the physical body is important for your spiritual expression. As you emphasize the wholeness and wellness of the physical body, you metaphorically focus on the wholeness and wellness of your spiritual being.

The neck and throat become a powerful physical focus for your expression. Because proper speech is so important to you, the organs of speech and the thyroid gland are your most valuable physical attributes. Voice training or other attention to the throat and throat chakra may be important to your development of clear communication. But first you need to listen, to others and to your inner voice.

You have the capacity to understand the duality of the material world and to penetrate the paradoxes that arise in your life. You can learn to see the ebb and flow of energies in your inner experience and in the outer world, and you understand that the attraction and repulsion of these energies leads to eventual synthesis. You perceive that sexual desire is one expression of duality on the physical level. The power of this duality provides the impulse to transcend mere physical desire and to discover the mystical union of forces. As you gain in experience, your sexual expression may deepen into the ritual of Tantra. Then you will feel the blossoming of spiritual awareness on a higher vibratory level.

Perhaps the greatest challenge you face is the transmutation of knowledge into wisdom. You have to develop spiritual awareness in order to go beyond stubborn attachment to personal desires. Your temper will give way to spiritually directed effort. Blind pursuit of self-interest will give way to a spiritual focus. Self-pity will give way to a concern for all humanity."

Taurus Ascendant from the Cosmo Natal Report:

"You have a sensible and realistic outlook on life and your two feet are always planted firmly on the ground (though you may, on occasion, have your head in the clouds). Others often see you as a rock of strength, solid, reliable, dependable, and constant. You are, in fact, amazingly consistent for you possess great powers of endurance and do not like to make changes or adjustments in your regular routine. You do things deliberately and methodically and do not easily accommodate the unexpected. Though you have a gentle, even soft, appearance, you are enormously strong-willed and stubborn. You go at your own pace and refuse to be rushed or pushed into anything before you feel sure about it. You can be coaxed and persuaded by charm, beauty, love, or affection - but never forced. You won't fight either, but simply stubbornly resist any attempt to coerce you to do something you do not want to do.

When you have a purpose, you are extremely fixed, immovable, and bull-headed about it. Your obstinacy is often infuriating to others, especially since it takes much provocation to make you flare up or respond to their anger (haha). You appear calm, unruffled, and non-emotional most of the time, but behind your easygoing and peaceable appearance there lies great strength. When it comes to a contest of wills, you often win simply due to your relentless persistence, your ability to outlast just about anyone. Another reason for your slowness to make changes is your very strong need for security. You are most comfortable in stable, relatively unchanging conditions and you also have a strong desire for tangible security - a home of your own, money in the bank, job-security, etc. The other side of your steadiness is that you easily get caught in a rut and will stay in a familiar situation (be it job, marriage, or whatever) long after it has lost its vitality and interest.

You have a keen appreciation of the natural world and get much happiness from simple creature comforts and the physical world, with all of its myriad delights. You are quite sensual in a very natural, wholesome way and you know how to enjoy yourself. You are appealing to the opposite sex in an earthy way. You are also a great lover of beauty and your tastes are basically conventional or classic - not modern."