Ask

Asking for help is difficult for me.

I do not know who to trust and who will accept me totally for who I am and most importantly besides these, who has the ABILITY to help?

I am THAT fragile. My heart shatters easily at the slightest touch. I cannot afford anyone to break me down due to my sensitivity.

Till then, I am trying to hold on to my fragile heart, trying to keep it safe from any unwarrant harm. Holding on. I am still holding on.

I am not expecting any miracle. I am just hoping this down time will pass. Perhaps, in the end, it will still be me to save my own self. Would anyone be there for me? What is the purpose for longing someone when I am able to do everything by my own self? I am weary but I am responsible for own self. But in this way, anyone else seems redundant.

I am still trying to sort things out. I still need the basic necessities to survive. I cannot let my down period to threaten my existence, all the more so on my kid and maid. I cannot afford that.

I MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS!