Now I'm Confused.

As much as you've said I confuse you,

now i feel confused. Esp after talking thru with a friend (all the while when we are not even contacting ea other at all; i'm up for anything, you can contact me anytime, but... i fear i wld offend u & disturb u if i do contact u on my own)

So instead of saying that you dun ustand me... is my friend right to say that you hope that i ustand you better too? You really do?

I appreciate direct communication. Dun hide anything. Talk things out as bright as daylight as if even showing up your triump cards on the table generously. If you want me to hold a secret for you, say so. Do not expect me to know for i aint some divine mind reader as much as i am a female.

At first, all i tot was that u need some time to cool off. Friendship? Cool. Fine. I'm up for it!

But now after speaking to a friend, some fear crept into me. Do you expect me to ustand you too? As much as you've told me that u think u dun ustand me, is your hidden message that i dun ustand you TOO?

Alas, i hv no confidence that i wld be able to do so esp with the turn of this event, this new light, this "ustanding" (if it is the correct intepretation at all).

I'm still waiting for you to finally contact me as usual.

but wif a much perturbed feeling now... why am i feeling disturbed? why am i confuse?